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Sunday, March 30, 2014


I'm titling this "Blank" because I'm at a loss on how to present this, and I haven't blogged in ages. So, I guess here goes...

I went to my Gyno for a bladder infection about a week ago. It was hurting my abdomen when using the bathroom. In a twist, my reg doc wasn't available and I needed someone right then. I went in, peed ( to make sure I wasn't pregnant. Ha) and he did an exam( this doc was around my age , so I was hesitant . That went away when I realized how professional he was). He felt around my abdomen and sent me down to radiology for an ultrasound. I wasn't panicked . I've had one before . This one though, lasted a good 30 minutes. The tech asked when my last CT scan was (like a freaking decade ago) and then asked when my last hcg (tube check)was. Now, before I go on. I'm not dumb. I knew something was up with my biznass. I had cysts in the past, so I figured that's what she was seeing. No biggie. Well, until she turned the screen so I couldn't see my insides. Which I love looking at . Then, she turned the volume up. Odd. However , I was calm, cool and collected until she printed out the long stack of ultrasound pics saying,"stay there I'm going to ask the radiologist if these are enough pictures." Yeah, dark room, alone freak out time. "Enough pics of WHAT!???" Was what inside my brain said. So, I hyper focused on a pic on the wall.  Upon her return I was told I was good to go and headed back up to my docs office . The doc shared with me that my tubes suck and have to be removed . They are what's causing pain. I have ovarian cysts. Then, apparently I have a solid small tumor( not cyst like my other ones) with a blood supply on my tube. Both of these need to be removed. Tumor and tubes. He said Fallopian tube cancer is rare, but we have to biopsy it to 
be sure . Now, I'm a girl with previous abdominal surgery, so all stomach surgery is a big deal. If it's cancer, I have a total hysterectomy and go from there. 
I know there are people going through treatments now, and I don't know how they feel. I don't want to know. So , I'm praying this thing is benign and then I'm done with it.  What this means on the fertility front likely is no kids, no treatments.  Nada. 
 So, I went in for what I thought would be a z pack I left with the news I needed surgery . I want it done and over with. I meet with an Oncologist (didn't even know what one was til a year ago ) Thursday for Preop and surgery is the next Friday .