Bored and xmas

I'm bored, so I'm posting.  Yeah, I probably shouldn't admit that, but oh well.

I love my new house. Hense the reason I DON'T want to visit family for Xmas. We have gone to both families during our two weeks off for our entire marriage.   Its not like our families live right down the road either. This is Texas, Nothing is close. My family is 6 hours away and his is about 5. So, really I just want to veg at my house. Will this happen? Highly doubt it. I'm just feeling nonchalant about the holidays. 

Oh, and an update on the baby situation. It looks like it won't work out. It hurts a little, but I was never promised anything, so I'm not too devastated.  I  can now only imagine what a true failed adoption must feel like. I wasn't in tears and I was VERY cautious emotionally, but I would think that if you finally let your guard down and it failed it would just be awful. 

Breathe

OMG...

OK, so a friend of mine on Facebook just posted that she may give her baby up for adoption. So, I emailed her and she's still in the decision making process. Its difficult and I know I shouldn't give it too much thought and put too much in to it and these things fall through all the time, but its a possibility!!! A possibility of having a little boy next year!!! I know I shouldn't get too excited, but I am. I'm praying for her and her decision to be what God has planned and I'm praying I don't get my hopes up so much that I get sick. This is our first POSSIBILITY EVER.